It has literally been ten days since becoming a family of three and I can tell you that I am absolutely thrilled and very exhausted. In a weird way, I feel like I understand moms after giving birth and not being able to sleep because that is exactly what we are going through. Except for the fact that our ‘infant’ is in the form of a man-child who is filled with lots of energy and tells us he does not want to sleep before bedtime every, single night.
In all seriousness though, we are so thankful to finally have custody of our Luca-bear and begin our lives together. This past week and a half has been filled with so many different emotions. We were thrilled to finally be at this point, yet the whole process has been bitter-sweet. Luca was in the care of a wonderful foster family and we know it was only a temporary situation, but to him it was all he’s known for his entire little life. For him to suddenly leave his known surroundings and enter the lives of two strangers at the age of two and a half is evidently tough. For the most part, Luca is a social butterfly and loves kids so on the outside looking in…he seems like he is adjusting rather quickly and well. We think he is also but we also know there is the other side of his transition that has been so difficult for him to understand. Nights are especially tough. Our first night was spent watching little Luca rolling his suitcase by the door, wondering if he was going to go back to his foster family’s home. I had to hide his suitcase after that and it seemed to help a lot. I spent several nights crying together with him and feeling hopeless, knowing I can’t provide him answers that he could understand right now. There were even nights where the three of us just held each other and cried and at one point, Luca wiped tears off of my face (which of course made me cry even more!).
I know we will get through these tough times and each day feels like our little boy is feeling more and more comfortable with us. I can’t wait for the day that he will not have to second guess whether or not we will be by his side and feel secure knowing we are his parents.
Thank you so much to each and every single one of you guys who have provided so much love and support to us over the past two years and beyond. I know we have a lot of people to introduce Luca to, but ask to give us a little time as Luca has been having some trouble opening up and then saying goodbye to people right now. In due time, we hope he will understand just how much he is loved and that he has a whole bunch of people who will never leave his side. Til then, thank you all again for everything…really. E and I are in awe of the indescribable amount of love you guys keep pouring over us. We don’t deserve it guys. You have no idea how much it’s meant to us. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts. XO! Angie, E…and Luca-bear:)